you know how that feels, when you really expect something from someone, not a big something, just for example that he won't forget your birthday and if not else, just says something like happy birhtday fucker, now go and die, and he totally forgets it?
okay so for you to be clear with this.. my brithday was on Tuesday. i really wasn't looking forward to it (because of other stupid excuses, nothing special btw) and i thought that Kristof might remember that and say something that day. and.. he just didn't. (others forgot it too,btw) and this hurts so much, because it would meant so fucking much i can't explain. and now i'm so sad, and so broken, i was crying all night on my brithday, even though, my dear friends were so cute, they've got me a present and cakes too, it was really nice.
i wish that.. you know what, i don't wish anything. i'm so depressed right now i'm not able to do anything. i'm reading (almost) all day (i'm finished with Twilight and New Moon, now i'm reading Eclipse) i actually laughed my ass off while i was reading Twilight. i don't know why i thought it was funny. while reading New Moon i was depressed.. and then i got frustated, i was dying to finish it (even though i liked it very much) right now i can't explain how i feel while i'm reading Eclipse... i think i'm a bit jealous. (don't ask)

'kay, i know soon wasn't that soon as you might thought, i'm sorry.

i just want to give Mia (myalight ) a warm welcome here on LJ! :) hope you're going to enjoy your life here babe:D

well,actually i have to go now because i'm goint to meet Gábor today (he's Evy's boyfriend - she asked me to meet him today) and i should start getting ready because i don't have a human look right now and i don't really want to scare him to death :D so, bye everyone (especially intelligent post soon, i promise)